I need to get back on track!

Ok so Poland was amazing and I had a great time, drank way too much and strayed from the plan and its making me realise that this is alot more difficult once off than when your actually on the plan! I put on about 1kg therefore I want to lose about 4kg this week to bring my total weight loss to 18lbs which would be amazing but I really need to get my ass into gear! I had chinese this morning and I really do not have a clue what I was thinking! I need to get back on my packs! So drinking alot more Water and gettin on my packs as of now :)
I cant believe I did so well and now im falling behind! I refuse to fail, and i refuse to not let myself have the body i want to have!

Watch out people, Rachael is Back and Stronger than Ever!!

LotsofLove
Rachiie -ox-

Day3 LighterLife

So Day3 and this is madness im down 3.7kg...in 3 days!!! Its mental :O But heres what ive experienced so far; happiness, anxiousness, excitement, and most of all relief, the relief that soon I will no longer be trapped by this shell of fat which stops me from so many things; swimming, wearing nice clothes, feeling confident, having fun in the bedroom with the boyfriend, be able to smile and mean it, able to walk into a shop and by whatever I want not whatever fits!
I cant wait for this journey, its only just begun, but it wont be long until im a beautiful, and I can finally be happy, and for once not doing something for anyone else, but for me :)
So lowdown on what we like and what we dont!

Likes
- vanilla milkshake (especially with coffee!!)
- strawberry milkshake
- vegtable soup
- tomato soup
- kinda like banana milkshake
- Chocolate milkshake made into mouse/muffin

Dont Like
- Caramel Milkshake!! eeewww!

So yersh all is going well and im soooo excited about taking on this challenge and becoming the person ive always wanted to be !

LotsofLove
Rachiie -ox-

Poland, LighterLife and Ignorant Friends

So im starting lighterlife on Thursday evening and cant wait im so excited Ive thought about it a thousand times, know what im getting into and ready to begin my new life..but..Im going to Poland 26th Jan - 30th Jan (mon-fri) so im taking my packs with me (anyone had any problems with this?) but my friends are not being helpful! Ive told my two girlfriends that im taking the packs and will make the soups up in the resturants and have shakes in the morning and lunch, and a bar for snack and ill be fine, but their like 'stop being stupid' 'whats one week going to make a difference to' 'what about you feeling left out' blah blah blah...I know this dont they think ive thought about it? IM now feeling really negative about going...someone please make me feel better I think ill do fine Sorry I needed to vent im so annoyed at them for being so ignorant of my feelings, I mean this means so much to me! I need to do this, for me, a week makes a HUGE difference! Im morbidly obese for god sake I need to make a change! I could lose 5lbs in that week, instead of gaining 5lbs!!!
Im doing this for me, they can make up their pop noodles, I make my shakes!! :D
LotsofLove
Rachiie -ox-

Begining of the New Me

The begining of something new can bring about many different emotions, anxiety, happiness, nervousness, anticipation, excitedness and more. Im experiencing all these emotions and many many more! This is something which is my last resort, I am tired of hiding away within a shell of fat, which I have used as an excuse for so many things for far too long!

My goals; to lose 7.7stone on the diet to bring my weight to around 10stones, which should be a comfortable size 10-12, my ideal! This isn't going to be easy, but what is in life...hiding from our problems and carrying on in a shell of unhappiness and continuing in a destructive manner which will only make us feel worse about ourselves!

I start on Thursday night so Friday day, and I cant wait!

Lets hope this is my new begining the new chapter in the life of Rachael, where my happiness will finally be reclaimed!

Well till next time; LotsofLove
Rachiie -ox-